I am exactly who I want to be.














my brothers in colombia !
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I got a puppy, hes seven weks old, but I got him about a week ago.


He's fucking adorable.
I'm happy.

me and paul hang out a lot.

I was over his house and his mom asked him if he wanted to join the family for dinner for his g-father and he was like "no, I dont think so"

and then she was like "Loren, would you like to come with us?"


so I went, and it was really nice, and they're all really great people.
I like spending time with paul, but I dont love him, he doesnt make my heart beat faster.
I wish he did, he's a great person, and he's shown how much he cares for me a number of times.




IhateyougarthIcantbringmyselftoletanyoneelseintomydamsoulbecauseyouvemademesoscared.





"And I'm placing all our pictures, in these broken frames to remind me never fall in love again"
-Away We Go, Valencia

I have no idea what I want in this lifetime.

my parents have lost all sense of trust in me.

a glimpse into my life;


::Math teacher is passing out papers, suddenly stops at one and makes a face like her just smelled something rancid::

Mr. Boles : Mole-ay? Who is Mole-ay?
Molly : It's Molly Mr. Boles, its Molly..




::loren dies from lack of air from laughing::

I love school.

I HAD THE BEST TIME LAST NIGHT!


mkay, so theres this girl named stephanie at work and she was having a party and she invited all us girls from work, me, cheyney, petra. (both girls are black)

Right before my shift ended, this boyyyyyy texted me!
we hung out last weekend and it was fun and so he asked me to stop by the walk and I was like alright, so I decided I would stop by prior to meeting up with the girls from work.
I did and it was sweet. I left after about an hour.

So we all meet up at petras house, I've got my skinny jeans on, a lacey gray top and a pair of black strappy sandals. A little out of my comfort zone but hey, these girls are a little different than my normal friends, lol.
We ll drive out and its this fucking like..black walls, neon colors techno music party.
It was awesome!!!!!


Petras like "Girl, I dont dance unless its booty poppin' music"
It was so funny, but we left after about an hour, lol.
And then I was like
"well Im going to go back to the walk to meet up with my friend"

and theyre like "whats the walk?"
"#$^%&(^*#@^%^& ?????"

So I decide to take them, lol.
And two of petras urban friends meet us there, it was the shit, lol.
they were like "So this da spot?"
and I was like "HAHA! YES THIS IS DA SPOT!"

Boy was there and so was jackie and this other kid danny and we all hun gout and then out of fucking no where these kids run up to us and theyre like

"Play us something sweet"
and we ended up fucking like..screaming the glorious words of brand new and tbs.
It was an awesome night!

I think the reason why its so much easier to be mad at the ones you trust is, is because, you always know they'll love you at the end of it all.

I GAVE SOMEONE MY NUMBER!
AND WE'RE HANGING OUT TONIGHT!




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HE THREW A FOOTBALL AT ME!



HE THREW ONE AT ME!
FOR ME TO CATCH, OR THROW, OR NOTICE HIM!

we were at the beach and this cute boy with a cast who I am completley convinced went to my elementary school was passing the ball with his friends and he totally threw it near me and ward totally fucking took it and threw it back!


WTF WARD?@!



I feel better every day.

tonight was awesome!

So, I think I went on a double date last night..



I'm nopt sure yet.

last night, was exactly what I needed.



I laughed, a lot,
and that is perfect.

I'm excited for school to start.

At work, there are always construction workers there like painting and doing what they do I suppose and there are two who are actually very cute and yesterday one of them smiled at me, and even though he's in his late twenty's and guys arent on my mind at the moment at all, it kinda made me feel better I guess.

In the sense that I'm not that bad, I'm worth a smile to a complete stranger and that makes me a little happier.

work is HARD!

I love Breanna Mitcham & Alex Petakas

I kinda miss how things were pre-world war "your boyfriends an asshole!"


:/

I have beautiful friends.

I'm tired of being here.